To break away from the norm of updating you all on my life I thought I'd give you a little peak into my subconscious and tell you about a dream I had last night.
To fully understand why this dream totally took away any sense of peace and security you have to know one thing. I'm deathly afraid of sharks. Like, I get nervous seeing them on TV and when I'm in an aquarium I'm constantly reassuring myself that there is glass keeping me safe. So, I guess It's not deathly afraid but it's enough to keep me from swimming in most bodies of water. Lake Michigan is my exception but even then my imagination can totally ruin it for me. Ok...to continue. My dream:
I'm on a boat in a place like Venice, Italy. It's like the city was in ruins or we're in a REALLY old city that fell into the sea. No one else is here. It isn't one of those little boats that the guy on the stick pushes you around with, no...it's like a smallish yacht and we're on the outside of the city in a little lagoon type place. Why are we there? To see the small whales that come here to eat and interact with people. Apparently it is a big deal that me and these strangers get to do this so everyone is super excited. I'm not. The water is dark and there are these huge beasts (the whales) swimming around in a very small body of water.
The strangers I am with are:
Two scuba divers who I think are just in it for kicks and giggles. They mention something about swimming for duct tape. A couple.
The owners of the yacht which is a overweight man and a very strong and capable woman. Every one is tan and firm of muscle but this woman seems like she could handle her own in a fight but there is a kindness in her eyes that is important for later on in the dream.
One person isn't a stranger and it is this guy I've met here in Korea. Or at least I think he is. It's strange...it's like he's a western version of himself. He didn't look like him but in my dream I KNEW it was him.
Anyways, everyone is keen on swimming with the whales and even I start to get a little excited. The sky is dark and it looks like rain. Not a big deal seeing as I'm from a state that is mostly cloudy at all times of the year. I dip my toes in the water and try to focus on the fact that these gentle beasts are vegetarians. They aren't even interested in a piece of me. I slip into the water but after about 30 seconds I'm done and try to swim to the boat. Something just isn't right. Plus the water is dark and I have no idea what kind of carnivorous species of plant, insect, amphibian--whatever--lives in the muck and grime of the sea floor.
I slip onto the boat and assure everyone I'm ok. The sky is getting darker and I start to shiver. I am telling myself that there is no reason for me to freak out. The owners tell me that nothing dangerous can get here which is why the whales can be found here--it is safe. If there are whales then there are no sharks.
yeah...that "logic" didn't really assure me cause if that were true then no whale on the whole planet would have ever been killed by a shark. Yeah right.
So I'm watching everyone splash and swim with the whales when I get this FEELING that something bad is going to happen. Really, there is no way in HELL a shark could get in there. The whales get there because it has something to do with the tides and the seasons...anyway there is one outlet to the sea and it is narrow. The whales are small, smaller than the typical human-eating shark. However, there are channels that bring in water from the the sea because it's venice and it just makes sense.
SO I start freaking out a little cause the sky is getting darker and I can't shake this dark feeling of dread. The lady owner of the yacht sees that I'm in distress and agrees to take me back to the main part of the city. That's when things start to happen. I'm in a near state of panic because i KNOW something is wrong and suddently there is an influx of water through the chanels. I mean the small trickle turns to bursts of water. The little yaht can't fight the force of the water and the owner is about ready to just turn back and join the others. I'm not OK with that so I jump out and start trying to climb to higher ground.
She tries to follow me and just as she jumps off the boat to follow me another huge wave of water slams through the channel and takes out the boat. Smashed to bits.
Now because the city is below sea level (in my dream) there are pipes and whatnot throughout the city to keep the water evenly dispersed and prevent flooding. So, I'm trying to get ABOVE these. I need to be above sea level -now-.
As I'm trying to climb up and the lady is telling me to stop and that we need to return to the others I hear a sickening crunch and look up at the pipe. There is a dead body stopping the water from draining.
Then the rain comes and bam--we can hear the people in the lagoon screaming. Apparently that last rush of water had not only destroyed the boat but brought something nasty from the sea. Yep--a shark. A super crazy human-hungry shark.
Through another series of drawn out and sickening sights I witness the death of each individual who foolishly thought they could out-wit the man hungry shark.
So my whole goal is to just CLIMB to the highes tpoint and wait out this freak storm and hope that someone will come to rescue me. That's when I realize i'm not the only survivor. The guy is alive and he's on a rocky cliff like thing not too far from me. What separates us is water so there is NO way in Hell we're crossing it just to offer comfort to one another.
So there we are, wet, cold, and shivering with the only other living thing circling the murky water between us.
A helicopter comes in to try to save us but the moment the guy comes down the ladder the shark jumps out of the water and tries to take a snap at him. Needless to say with these super animal powers it ends up taking down the helicopter and therefore our rescue.
By this time both of our nerves are frayed to the point of no return and I just curl up in a ball and give up. It hasn't stopped raining and the water level is only getting higher and higher. I know the souless eyes of the blood thirsty killer is just waiting for the second where it can snack on my lifeless body. The guy keeps trying to keep me awake telling me someone would be back to rescue us but I can't believe him. Nope. I'm just done.
That's when I wake up. Granted I woke up repeatedly throughout the night but the dream just wouldn't end. I blame it on the tuna fish and rice I ate before going to bed. x.x
according to this dream interpretation site this is what some of it means:
To see a whale in your dream, represents your intuition and awareness. You are in tuned with your sense of spirituality. Alternatively, a whale symbolizes a relationship or business project that may be too big to handle. You are feeling overwhelmed. The dream may also be a pun on "wailing" and a desire to cry out about something.
To see or taste saltwater in your dream, symbolizes tears and heartache. It may also indicate some emotional outburst or suffering.
To see muddy or dirty water in your dream, indicates that you are wallowing in your negative emotions. You may need to take some time to cleanse your mind and find internal peace. Alternatively, the dream suggests that your thinking/judgment is unclear and clouded. If you are immersed in muddy water, then it indicates that you are in over your head in a situation and are overwhelmed by your emotions. To dream that water is rising up in your house, suggests that you are becoming overwhelmed by your emotions.
To see a shark in your dream, indicates feelings of anger, hostility, and fierceness. You are undergoing a long and difficult emotional period and may be an emotional threat to yourself or to others. Perhaps, you are struggling with your individuality and independence, especially in some aspect of your relationship. Alternatively, a shark represents a person in your life who is greedy and unscrupulous. This person goes after what he or she wants with no regards to the well-being and sensitivity of others. The shark may also be an aspect of your own personality with these qualities.
To dream that you surrender, suggests that you need to rid yourself of past emotions and habit. It is time to let go. Alternatively, the dream indicates that you are giving up something important. Perhaps you are having second thoughts.